its a start i guess.

misses.

2008-11-01T10:28:00.000-07:00

hrmmm..
mayb i shd not think abt her or bring something along wif me but there's some part of me holding on.haiz...i've been drinking n taking something just to forget it for awhile.sometime i feel stupid coz im destroying my life n wasting my money on those stuff..fuck it..just got to stop tis!

to min don't be sad.
deres many fishy2 out there.!!

ohh,while i was in the car,with some of my friends i happen to saw an accident we stop and went out of the car and saw one of athyra's friend and i was hoping she wasnt the victim of the accident but thank god she wasnt the one.I wanted to msg her but was to drunk.So i msg her after that to take care of herself and ride safely,wahaha.

life sucks,ns sucks cos i got to spent my birthday in the jungle org ckp.
booking out on thursday so will be at double o~misses\
yipee double o here i comee
kaching money in the bank teros da uh,post.

moving on.

2008-10-18T03:50:00.000-07:00

its over..i cant hold on much longer..
there's no point fighting for it.im the one who's doing the clapping..
letting it go is my only options.

im sori for everything.
mayb ur rite..i deserve a better girl than u...
mayb tis tyme ard i'll find the one that can reali love me n dont break any promises.
n mayb wat my fwen is saying is true..i shd leave u when it happen the 1st time..haiz..
i nvr reali open my eyes to see wats coming...until now..!
i've been very stupid...i shdn't had gav all the love n turst..!
saying being fwens is just no use..if i would to see u wif someone new it will hurt me more.!!
so im reali sori for doing tis.
i cant hold much longer.its painful enuf.ppl telling wat u reali r...there's somethings dat i keep from u.

i guess the things are true...haiz...

im sori..
its hard for me.
but i got no options.

i still hav some feels.
but i got to let go.
forgeting u is hard.
but i got to went im still loving u.

arrrr.

2008-10-04T07:48:00.000-07:00

im so tried,sick n depress..but thank god i got fwens..min thanks alot for being dere for me.
thanks alot...u noe how i feel how abt her min..ur there only one noes alot...
im reali app8 u bro..thanks..
im sori if im at trouble to u.

i just nid someone to be dere for me n listen to wat im feeling.
thanks min!

worth my tears.

2008-10-04T07:41:00.001-07:00

hrmm.i noe u dont even care.but i want u to noe.i cant stop thinking abt wat had happen..mayb im the coz of all tis..i cant stop thinking abt u n crying abt it mayb its kental but im so weak.i nvr feel so depress..im sori for wat i've done...i just feel so lost cos of wat i wanted was just attention from u but it was to much, i noe...i've learn my lesson..i cant forgive myself for doing tis to u..i love u..ppl ask me to leave u but i dont want to..coz i sayang u alot bie..n i been not myself lately n been think abt r u coming back if i given u the space.
but i noe best wats gonna happen..

so i'll tell u tis..loving u was nvr a regert getting hurt is part of love,bie my tears is worth it every single drop of it..i told u tat ur the one n the last one..bie think abt it syng...dont close ur doors yet..i still nid u hunny..i dont care wat ppl say cos i seriously love u..

mayb i dont deserve tis
but atleast i give me a chance.
i cant live wif out u...
i love u always syng.

2008-10-01T04:52:00.000-07:00

im sori.

hunny,i reali sori for being too clingy...the reason i being tis way is cos i miss u.. hunny u noe i like to be close to u n im the type like to be manje..i was sad cos i cant get close to u..i just want to spent awhole day together tats all i ask for.but we had to go to alot of places..i just want our time together syng..i noe was wrong to be clingy but i cant help it i miss u so much..hunny im reali sori...hunny leaving is not the only options..we can talk tis out..think abt it i talk to u when thing happen to us the 1st time..bie im not tat prefect tau..i nid u to correct me..im reali sori for overeacting abt the msg..

my fears.

giving her the space den she will nvr come back.

a promise to u.

i'll not b too clingy.

i'll listen more to wat u have to say.

we both noe.

tat we dont want tis to happen.

we had made the promise tat we're not going to leave each other.

i had a bad day.

swollen eyes n red all over.

crying the whole day cos she not dere for me.

hide from my mummy so she dont see me crying.

hari mood was not in the air for me.

wearing the baju kurong makes so sad.

cos we plan to wear it together.

if i didnt make dat mistake i wld had celebrate my 1st hari raye wif a gf n wear the same colour.

i was so down tat i cant get my mood on for hari raye.

im so lost wifout her.

i just dont noe wat to do.

i dont feel like go back to camp.

im so fuck up like tis.

arrrr!!!

she the love of my life .

hope n have fate.

mess up.gulit.love.promises.

2008-09-30T23:25:00.000-07:00

the mess up. im in a mess..just do noe wat to do in my life.
the most important person in my life just nid her space n time will tell if she will come back. to me im gg to miss her alot..i noe the outcome of this time out. been crying for tis pass few days. noeing dat she not dere for me for tis time being.

the gulit.
i had done something tat i did before tat crush my life.
i did it to the most important person in my life!
i hate myself for doing this. i shdnt tell ppl abt our problem!

the love.
the 1st time i saw her. i was telling to myself she's cute n i like her eyes n hair. but days go by i had a crush on her. but i just dont show it to her. she had me hook. we sat at changi n sing the "im yours"it was sweet.! den its started..feeling start to develop. one of the day i was on the way to meet her n it was raining i got a msg from her say"beak2 jln,tgh rain". i start going out wif her..send her home everyday. n went i felt sick she was dere for me. she was sweet to me. she reali noe wat i want in life n she special to me.! every single hug n kiss i got means alot to me. i'll do anything to just to be wif her.

the promises.
she told me tat she will love me no matter wat.
i told tat i want to make her my wife.
she promise me not to leave me.
i promise her dat im not gonna leave her too.
she told me that she love me so much.
i told her tat i cant live wifout her.
she promise not to do anything to hurt me.
i promise her not to be paranoid n to trust her.
i promise her to a ring on my pay.
i promise to bring out to sentosa for nice sunny date.
i promise her tat i'll go clubing wif her by my side.
i promise her dat i'll not be clingy.

im so mess up.
so stress up.
so lonely.
so sad.

somehow i feel im lossing her oreadi..i hope she think it well..='[
i love her tat i cant see just walk out of my life.
iloveuhunnybun..

drunk.penat.sting ray.tk cukop tido..

2008-06-27T06:49:00.000-07:00

hahaa..i had a super week!.i was super DRUNK at susi's pit.
then the next day way super SOBER.!!but still i went to syiqah's b'dae party at sentosa.!my frewn call me crazy...after i went to sentosa..tat nite i went to susi's house to watch some movie.
i was farking penat!!den in the morning...a crazy idea from my frewn saying lets go fishing!!!
i was wat the hell!!!im farking penat their ask me to follow...but syg kwn nyer pasal pegi la...
haha..

den while waiting for hasri n susi to buy food.bump into FADDY n the geng!!!haha
they tagged along n they call us the pancing boyz..hahah.cool!

we had so much fun..bird got the catch of the day!!
the "ikan pari"(sting ray)..woouhhh...!!!
den i caught the flu.i was to sick to fish den i just stop n had my rest..
damn..!man i snore like a drum...!!haha.

the next day was lagi penat...had to follow mr yan!(once ur hook or dead.)
he ask me if im free or not..so i say im free but im tired..but he still want me to follow.
mati,mati.!!but he say dat wat i want he will pay for it..so i just follow the flow..so i follow him to changi..mit up afew of new frewns. & i ask mr yan to buy for me nasi lemak!!(changi nyer bebe..sedap!!)
lol..but went we reach there he was the 1st wan to slp.!PISANG GORENG!-__-'

i had so much fun dat i forgot wats the date.!!
haha..i spent almost a week at the beach!
if i would carry on like this, i will die!haha.

sori gu guys abit boring no pics....=[
i'll post part 2 of:
drunk.penat.sting ray.tk cukop tido..
wif pics
haha.

helping hand.

2008-06-20T05:56:00.000-07:00

i suck in this layout things...!
my call for help was ans!!!
woohuu!!

thanks to feo.
im lost wif out you!
haha...

n now im going to explore this website.!!

im getting it started.

2008-06-20T04:18:00.000-07:00

im seriously in need of help with this thing!!!
its too plain..!
HELP!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAArrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!